Monday, February 15, 2010

anatomy of an Ilya #5

"sacrifice...i hope someone would do such thing for seems that you wouldn't. poor me. "

Friday, February 5, 2010

Thursday, February 4, 2010

anatomy of an Ilya #3

"Sorry, for I am being..paranoid.
Justifiably Paranoid it is.."

anatomy of an Ilya #2

"It breaks my heart every time you ignore me when you just told me to come and help"


Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face
Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder
How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet
Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud
I'll live for you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem ...... why are you crying
Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are if you're perfect

it's a shame.


I've just read che det's blog about the using of kalimah "Allah" by the christians.
it is a shame to read the comments. its really2 sad to read that they are many people still don't understand why the Malay Muslim doesn't want those Christians to use the word "Allah". Here's are some facts that everyone should know :

1.Malaysia although we have 3 main ethnics, the Malays, chinese & Indians, but MELAYU is still the main ethnic group and the Malay people are very patriotic about our own country. So, everything that is going on in MALAYSIA must concern the main people which is the MELAYU. and that is why the Malays are so angry when the church people want to use "Allah" in their writings. It is just unacceptable and confusing. You already know Allah is the only God to Muslims, then why they still wan to use it? Regardless what has happen in Indonesia long time ago, we cannot simply compare Malaysia with Indonesia. We are not the same, the religions issue in Indonesia is so complicated i cant imagine how. But in Malaysia, the Malay Muslim, we are very sensitive when it comes to religion issue.
It is weird and fishy why in the world would the cristians in Malaysia want to use the word "Allah" when its clear that Allah is not their god. just think about it..

2.What Tun(chedet) said is right, we never heard any christians people using the word "Allah" in their preach or anything. Then why suddenly they want to use the word "Allah"in their books or article? Generally i understand that they believe Jesus as God, and also the Trinity Concept which is God the Father, God The Son and The Holy Ghost, and never ever in the bible mention anything about praying to Allah.
"So why the Christians want to use "Allah" in the first place?"

3. I am aware that the Christians also believe in Allah,but they don't have to use the word "Allah" in their books or article because it will confuse many people generally because Allah is only associated with Islam. not other religion.
so, the christians should know better and they should have not use the word "Allah" or sorry if i may say that maybe they purposely wanted to use it in order to confuse the people, specifically the Muslim so that they can attract them to convert? Who knows?

My arguments end with just a simple solution:
"Use the word TUHAN, it is general. it can be Allah according to Muslim, Jesus according to Christians. Simple as 1,2,3..A,B,C :D"

But then again, who am i to judge, but as far as i concern, I am MELAYU and as a Muslim, this is just simply my point of view. I hope many people would understand this more and that is why the Malay Muslims are angry.

good day people,

can you read my mind?

 The Killers - Read My Mind .mp3

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

It hurt so bad..

anatomy of an Ilya #1

"Things are suppose to get easier, not harder. i don't understand anything. I'm fucking insane.."


Monday, February 1, 2010

i am serius. i can be.

ok, i already told u all that i can cry easily. because of many things.
but one thing i realize, sometimes people just couldnt care less about me. i mean they didnt take me for serious. i know im always loud and crazy and always try to act cool with everything but im still a girl. i am sensitive. i want to be taken seriusly. i want to be known for good things too. but why people treat me like i am just one of those..i dont know..not important. or maybe im just being emotional? what good that we can get if we have many friends? pening! thats what i get. thats y i tend to stick to my true friends..the ones that has been with me for such a long time..they know me well..they love me. and i love them. i couldnt live w/out em..i really2 miss them so much. right now i need them. really2 do..but i cant just rely on them. i need to stay strong. i need to proof to everyone that i can be happy and enjoy myself without those jerks and so called "bajed bagus" pegi mampus ok?! i shall continue about those jerks later on.

now, im gonna go to mucuk's house.
nk tlg dia masak kari kamben. :))

again and again.


i know people. i keep on changing my layout. BOSAN.
its cold, and my hard disk is left with aswad. just got back from London.
ada meeting UKEC, so called meeting for MPP around UK lah. its ok i guess, but its not that really interesting. sorry to say. compared to MPP in malaysian uni lagi menakutkan and challenging. miss everyone, but i'm too stress to contact anyone. kenapa?
sebab this coming presentation on 15th of Feb, i hate my groupmate! stupid asswhole pye mak itam. asyik nk bising je kt aku. cakap mcm yenna. aku pun dh pening, yg ko tau asyik nk marah2 aku je kan. aku je la yg malas kn? pegi mampus ok?! aku dh bg kerja ko xnk bg feedback pun. skg..ape nk jadi jadi lah!!!

owh,look forward to this feb sebab ayah nk dtg UK! yeay!!!
hopefully mucuk (sox) will be ready to face him. ehehe :)