Saturday, October 23, 2010

Charm Heath

Remember 10 things i hate about you movie? Charming as he was.


Monday, October 4, 2010

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Friday, October 1, 2010

Hasad Dengki


Well i'm not gonna elaborate more on this. mmg semua org dh maklum this kind of people.
Sedikit sebyk maybe we all have a bit of this feeling but it depend on the person.

Anyways........this past several months, i heard so many stories about people yg penuh dgn hasad dengki. not enough with kepoyo-an masing2 by showing off their superiority, konon2 baik.. but the thing is, they are the one who porak perandakan all the madness. they think what they did is good but NO! Hell No!!

Malas nk mention what sort of things yg dh terjadi but the main point is,
"Jgn nk sebuk pasal hal org and heboh2kan kt dunia, padahal diri sendiri ada byk skeleton in the closet. Bile semua org dh tau psl those 'skeletons' perasaan menyampah terus jadi benci. Mmg kene pdn ngn muka! IN YOUR FACE!!"

So,dont bother to sniff up what people do and mind your own business, if you want to give advice they are so many ways..jgn nk sebuk suh org lain..nk tegur, tegur elok2, pastu kalo nk tegur tu mmg kena sgt cermin diri sbb kalo dh diri sendiri x betul, nk tegur org lain..even benda btul tu org x mau dgr ckp kite ok? Blend it with people, be nice! dont be stuck up! dont be arrogant SOB!

Ok, phew!
Lega skit...

Till then, traa :)

Friday, August 27, 2010

Believe it or not

I'm already married!! :)

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Monday, August 23, 2010

Monkey or Sword?

Traffic lights with monkey statue in Krabi town

Friday, April 23, 2010

Tuesday, March 23, 2010


it hurts. really hurt me.
am i over-react? or am i just..hmmm
i'm beginning to believe what i've said before.
maybe i am destined to be sad...forever..

whatever happen to hopes?
hmm,well..there're always hope.
but the pain that u have can sometimes makes u
just wanna give up. sigh..

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

get it done.

please yes please, hope to get it all done.
had enough of this madness.
can't wait for this easter break :)


please jerking some place else.
there's more people u can jerk off out there..

Monday, February 15, 2010

anatomy of an Ilya #5

"sacrifice...i hope someone would do such thing for seems that you wouldn't. poor me. "

Friday, February 5, 2010

Thursday, February 4, 2010

anatomy of an Ilya #3

"Sorry, for I am being..paranoid.
Justifiably Paranoid it is.."

anatomy of an Ilya #2

"It breaks my heart every time you ignore me when you just told me to come and help"


Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face
Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder
How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet
Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud
I'll live for you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem ...... why are you crying
Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are if you're perfect

it's a shame.


I've just read che det's blog about the using of kalimah "Allah" by the christians.
it is a shame to read the comments. its really2 sad to read that they are many people still don't understand why the Malay Muslim doesn't want those Christians to use the word "Allah". Here's are some facts that everyone should know :

1.Malaysia although we have 3 main ethnics, the Malays, chinese & Indians, but MELAYU is still the main ethnic group and the Malay people are very patriotic about our own country. So, everything that is going on in MALAYSIA must concern the main people which is the MELAYU. and that is why the Malays are so angry when the church people want to use "Allah" in their writings. It is just unacceptable and confusing. You already know Allah is the only God to Muslims, then why they still wan to use it? Regardless what has happen in Indonesia long time ago, we cannot simply compare Malaysia with Indonesia. We are not the same, the religions issue in Indonesia is so complicated i cant imagine how. But in Malaysia, the Malay Muslim, we are very sensitive when it comes to religion issue.
It is weird and fishy why in the world would the cristians in Malaysia want to use the word "Allah" when its clear that Allah is not their god. just think about it..

2.What Tun(chedet) said is right, we never heard any christians people using the word "Allah" in their preach or anything. Then why suddenly they want to use the word "Allah"in their books or article? Generally i understand that they believe Jesus as God, and also the Trinity Concept which is God the Father, God The Son and The Holy Ghost, and never ever in the bible mention anything about praying to Allah.
"So why the Christians want to use "Allah" in the first place?"

3. I am aware that the Christians also believe in Allah,but they don't have to use the word "Allah" in their books or article because it will confuse many people generally because Allah is only associated with Islam. not other religion.
so, the christians should know better and they should have not use the word "Allah" or sorry if i may say that maybe they purposely wanted to use it in order to confuse the people, specifically the Muslim so that they can attract them to convert? Who knows?

My arguments end with just a simple solution:
"Use the word TUHAN, it is general. it can be Allah according to Muslim, Jesus according to Christians. Simple as 1,2,3..A,B,C :D"

But then again, who am i to judge, but as far as i concern, I am MELAYU and as a Muslim, this is just simply my point of view. I hope many people would understand this more and that is why the Malay Muslims are angry.

good day people,

can you read my mind?

 The Killers - Read My Mind .mp3

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

It hurt so bad..

anatomy of an Ilya #1

"Things are suppose to get easier, not harder. i don't understand anything. I'm fucking insane.."


Monday, February 1, 2010

i am serius. i can be.

ok, i already told u all that i can cry easily. because of many things.
but one thing i realize, sometimes people just couldnt care less about me. i mean they didnt take me for serious. i know im always loud and crazy and always try to act cool with everything but im still a girl. i am sensitive. i want to be taken seriusly. i want to be known for good things too. but why people treat me like i am just one of those..i dont know..not important. or maybe im just being emotional? what good that we can get if we have many friends? pening! thats what i get. thats y i tend to stick to my true friends..the ones that has been with me for such a long time..they know me well..they love me. and i love them. i couldnt live w/out em..i really2 miss them so much. right now i need them. really2 do..but i cant just rely on them. i need to stay strong. i need to proof to everyone that i can be happy and enjoy myself without those jerks and so called "bajed bagus" pegi mampus ok?! i shall continue about those jerks later on.

now, im gonna go to mucuk's house.
nk tlg dia masak kari kamben. :))

again and again.


i know people. i keep on changing my layout. BOSAN.
its cold, and my hard disk is left with aswad. just got back from London.
ada meeting UKEC, so called meeting for MPP around UK lah. its ok i guess, but its not that really interesting. sorry to say. compared to MPP in malaysian uni lagi menakutkan and challenging. miss everyone, but i'm too stress to contact anyone. kenapa?
sebab this coming presentation on 15th of Feb, i hate my groupmate! stupid asswhole pye mak itam. asyik nk bising je kt aku. cakap mcm yenna. aku pun dh pening, yg ko tau asyik nk marah2 aku je kan. aku je la yg malas kn? pegi mampus ok?! aku dh bg kerja ko xnk bg feedback pun. skg..ape nk jadi jadi lah!!!

owh,look forward to this feb sebab ayah nk dtg UK! yeay!!!
hopefully mucuk (sox) will be ready to face him. ehehe :)

Monday, January 25, 2010

My Heart is made from Glass

I dont know why but i can say that i cry a lot now. i do! with everything thats has happen,should happen, could have happen. It just so hard to keep up with everything. i spend a lot of time thinking...thinking of what to do...why didnt i do that? and why is this happening to me? why? why? why?...there are so mane questions and thoughts.. i'm beginning to feel like. i dont know. numb? comfortably numb? i dont know. it just that when everything seems to be going well..there are things that'll screw things up, of cos by myself. how can i be so stupid? fucking ignorance. i hate dont hate myself. its just, i'm afraid with whats going to happen in the future. i used to be very excited about the future. we can build up this dream and imagines things that u want to be..and in control of what u want to happen.. but now, i'm afraid. i'm afraid of what will happen in the future.kept thinking to myself about this, will Allah permits the way that i want it to be? after all the sins i've done? to family and all..i am so frustrated with myself. i wish i could turn back time. but then again, if i could, then i would never have the chance to know Sox. i love him. yes i really do love him. i want to be with him for the rest of my life. but why didnt i feel happy? is that the punishment that Allah gives to me? will sox loves me forever? will he be succeed in his life? will i be succeed? are our parents will gives us blessing to us? will this and that? :( i dont know. i really really hope so. i know i can be so fu**ing stubborn. i am not a good person. i know. i can really be pain in the ass. i tend no to, but some people just get on my nerves. i hate them. why do they have to be such a jerk? to hell with them!

"Ya Allah, kau permudahkanlah hidupku, maafkanlah segala dosa-dosa ku...kau berikanlah aku petunjuk ke jalan yg benar..permudahkan lah jodoh kami.. tenangkanlah hatiku...buka kan lah pintu hati ku supaya aku tidak lalai dlm mengerjakan segala perintahmu dan suruhan mu Ya Allah..kuatkan lah Iman ku..."

Monday, January 18, 2010


Helvetica Rules!!

Thursday, January 7, 2010


Winter in Treforest - 2009

Thanks for having me in your life..

Anatomy of Hipsters #141